Lymph Nodes

Funny how the term 'lymph nodes' can cause such fear in me now. Dominic has been hacking away with a cough for about two weeks now. I had to take him in to the doctor to try and get rid of this. I was fine the whole time we were there...almost. Even when the doctor said he has pneumonia I didn't freak out or become overly concerned. In fact, I think I kind of expected it. BUT---when he showed us the x-ray and where there were some lymph nodes that looked funky, my heart skipped a beat. I know lymph nodes can become inflamed when a person is sick. I know what their general purpose is. But they will always scare me. How many years ago did I first learn what a lymph node even was? Jerry? Are we looking at 20 years now since you had your cancer? To me there will forever be the link between lymph nodes and cancer. My lymph nodes were clean when I had my lumpectomy, but still my cancer came back. So....were they really clean?? or are these cancer cells so tricky that they can hide or disguise themselves?

Anyway, Dominic is resting comfortably and for that I am overwhelmingly grateful. I have always said that the thing I am most thankful for is that it is me who has the cancer and not Dominic. It's too hard to watch your children be ill. Sorry mom and dad...if I could spare you the heartache of my disease I certainly would!!

I didn't realize how stressed the events of this day made me until I sat down here to write about it. My boy is sick. Please say a little prayer for him so he gets over this thing quickly...and so his lymph nodes get back to normal.

And say a little prayer for Brian too. Today is his birthday!!

Here I am!

Hmmm...looks like I may have actually got this thing going. I'll be playing around with it a little first to get things the way I want them so it's easy for both you and me to read and use. Then it's just a matter of getting myself in the habit of posting. I like the idea of having a place for all of us to "connect." I hope this works!